To my love~

I found this poem while I was cleaning out my room. I wrote in April 26th, 2005, but I think it still applies. Its not the best, but I like the meaning behind it.

To my love~
I don't know you,
but my heart overflows when I think of our future together
I don't know what your voice sounds like,
but I get chills think about what you'll whisper in my ears
I don't know the contours of your face,
but I can see your beauty
I don't know the feel of your hand in mine
but my palms are fit just for you
I don't know the warmth of your embrace,
but I know I'll be safe in its shelter
I don't know you
but I do know these two things
First: Everyday is one day closer to you
Second: I love you


Verse of the day: Hebrews 13:4 "Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral."

The Spotlight

I love the theatre. There is no comparable feeling as to when there is a sudden hush in the audience as the curtain is pulled and the lights brought up. People say that theatre is just a way for humans to hide from the reality of their lives, but I disagree. Live theatre is one of the most "real" things that could be done. It is the job of the actors and actresses to make the audience believe that they are in another world. If they fail, hundreds of people are there to mock and torment. Also live theatre, no matter how well rehearsed, is completely unpredictable. Doors slam causing set pieces to fall, but it just adds to the reality that is portrayed by the characters.

As an actress I find it so rewarding to be on stage and know that for maybe and hour and a half I am able to take someone's mind off of the worries they face at home. When a patron comes to the theatre they can fly to far off places, feel love that's never found them, laugh at familiar situations, and feel for just a moment that they have no problems of their own. Its like creating a mini vacation. There is so much stress in this world and so much pressure that when I am on stage my main goal is to create a place where there is no stress.

I believe that God blesses everyone with talents and passion, that He expects us to use to further His kingdom. I pray every day that the passion I have for theatre, and hopefully, talent, transmits my love for Him. I never could have made it this far without my God and I know that he has blessed me because of my faith. I just pray that my faith continues this way as I start a new Act in the production of 'Life.'

Verse of the Day: Ecclesiastes 1:11 "There is no remembrance of men of old, and even those who are yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow."

My prayer: God let my intentions be purely directed towards pleasing you and not making myself famous, because in the end only you will be remembered.

Wanting

What do you do when you want something but know it is better if you don't get what you are wishing for? God has a plan and if He wants you to have something he will make it available or allow you to have it, right? How do we know if what we want is in His plan?

God, please show me your plan and allow me to see what you want for me. Amen

Verse of the night: Matthew 17:20 "He replied, 'Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, "Move from here to there" and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.'"

My Graduation Speech

This is the draft of the speech I turned in. Personally I think It could have been a lot better but i didn't have the time or the drive. Oh well enjoy.
LET’S CELEBRATE
Oprah Winfrey once said, “The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate.” Her statement couldn’t be truer. Today, a day called graduation, commencement, or the new beginning, is a day set aside to celebrate the lives of a few amazing people. As we celebrate our accomplishments we realize how blessed we are and how much there is to be celebrated. Everyone here today can look upon the graduates and find reason to celebrate.
First, I speak to our siblings and underclassmen. I encourage you to relish the fact that time flies! One day soon you will be sitting here, thinking back over your high school career. Celebrate what you have to look forward to, but also celebrate where you are now. Don’t rush the moment because it will be over before you know it!
Next, I would like to address the School Board, and our administration. As you shake each graduate’s hand, celebrate the look on our faces. Everything you do, all the time you spend making our school a better place is exemplified in the accomplishments of each student. Because of your dedication to us, we were able to grow and learn in a safe and productive environment
To the teachers, Celebrate because you have changed the lives of the students you see before you. For the last few months you have pushed us harder and harder when senioritis had set in. You’ve always kept us going and have made school exciting until the end! Teachers, please find gratification in knowing that you have equipped us with the greatest tool in the world-education. Your love for learning has left its impression and we face tomorrow looking for an opportunity to learn thanks to what you have taught us.
And where would any senior be with out their parents. To all of our parents out there it is your day to celebrate the end of concerts, games, recitals, plays, and every thing else we were involved in. But you must also find triumph within yourselves. The fact is that because of you we are able to stand here today as young men and women ready to take on the world. Your love, support, and guidance have brought us to the point where we are able to go out on our own and create a better place for our children.
Finally I turn to the seniors. We have so much to delight in, but I believe it is most important to celebrate H.O.P.E. Hope is an acronym for celebrating our Honors, our Obstacles, our Potential, and our Eccentricities.
This day was created to applaud our Honors and achievements. We have worked our hardest for the last thirteen years. In that time we have accomplished so much; we have grown, matured, learned, and conquered.
Obstacles have always stood in the way of achieving our goals; but we are here today. We have over come those obstacles. We must celebrate and learn from the events in life that challenge us. Robert Frost once wrote, “The only way around, is through.” We’ve come through many storms, but we are stronger people because of those trials.
Obstacles make us stronger, creating more “P” Potential inside everyone of us. We must celebrate the fact that we possess the potential to revolutionize the world. When I look at our class I see tomorrow’s politicians, doctors, teachers, musicians, actors, homemakers, and businessmen. I see the capabilities of our class feeding the hungry, clothing the poor, teaching the uneducated, and liberating the enslaved. As long as we celebrate and embrace the potential inside every one of us, we can change the world.
E stands for celebrating our Eccentricities. Our unconventional ways set us apart from any generation before us. Each on of us here is different from the person sitting next to us. Our individuality has the potential of creating a diverse world where everyone is accepted for who they are. Our unique personalities are what allow us to be all that we can be. Celebrate who you are!
Seniors if you only take one thought away today, I ask that it be this one: Celebrating our Honors, Obstacles, Potential, and Eccentricities is the only hope for tomorrow. We are the next generation, we must step up, take responsibility, and celebrate our achievements. Vince Lombardi said it best, “It is time for us all to stand and cheer with the doer, the achiever, the one who recognizes the challenge and does something about it.”
Enjoy your day, Celebrate HOPE, and may God bless you all!

Verse of the day: Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord...
I know its used alot but its so true and encouraging

PROM!!!!

Prom has come and gone, and it was one of the best nights ever! I spent it with one of my best friends in the entire world, and we had a great time. I would almost say it was perfect but you know hair is stupid and doesn't do what it is supposed to. Also my parents went balistic when my date and I fell asleep on the couch. We were watching a movie w/ a group of kids at my house and we both fell asleep. Whoop de doo! But anyway we had a great time, and we won a Betta fish, that we named Shiz! He's beautiful! I don't think I have ever had so much fun at a dance. It is in part due to the fact that I was comfortable w/ my date, and the fact that I wasn't searching for someone to dance with every single song. I danced w/ another one of my best guy friends, the one i had the crush on, during the Vitamin C song "Graduation." I started crying immediately. It was a great dance and a lot of emotions welled up during the dance, but I think it was good for the healing process.

I'm a little worried about our friendship lasting past highschool. I mean I understand we won't see each other every day, but we can still be friends right? And I haven't been able to talk to him about it. I mean we don't have to spend every friday night together, but couldn't we go out to lunch or dinner every once and a while. And I won't interfere in his relationships, which seems to be a reoccuring thing at highschool. I really don't want to lose him as a friend because he means a lot to me; more than i think he realizes.

Well I have still need to write my graduation speech and get to bed early, So goodnight world!

Verse of the night: Proverbs 4:23 Above all else, gaurd your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.