Frustrated

Sometimes life is so frustrating. Take the first month of my life as a collegiate. I am a theatre and film major. I have auditioned for essentially five shows and have not made one yet. I know my expectations shouldn't be very high because I am only a freshman, but this is the first semester in three years that I haven't been involved in a show. To top things off my best friend in the entire world auditioned for two shows and made both of them. Needless to say I'm a little jealous. I mean its not even his major. Granted we go to different schools and his school is a lot smaller. I'm just frustrated that as a theatre and film major I'm not getting to do any shows. For all of my auditions i've been called back which stinks because that means I was good, just not good enough. It really brings up some questions about my worth as an actress. I know I know I'm letting the drama queen in me take over but I can't help feeling frustrated. I know that I am acting for God. That is my mission in life. But how can I act for God if I'm not acting at all? UGH! Plus there is the normal stress of school and homework and trying to find a social life. Please pray for me that I will trust God completely and that he would consume my mind, my heart, my life, and everything I exude.

Bible verse of the day: Psalm 126:5-6 "Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him."